Yo supp all! I just came home from a night out with my mates, a very well deserved night out and its gettin purty late. I havent had so much fun in aggeeesss espesh cuz i jus been workin on assignments n shyt so yayyy im so glad i got to go out! The night was pretty much jus filled with staying in one spot, drinking and talking for hours and hours. Its pretty funny how mates can actually find so much to talk about and neva get sick or run out of topics! And we always have an awesome time! But yea we were prety much like parked in this secluded area in the park and as we were talking & drinking (they were) the cops drove by and totally turned into our parking lot, drove really really slowly past us then left. Omg i thought they were gonna get out and interrogate us but thank God they didnt because we werent supposed to be drinking there. Whew!

Anyway so yea it was a pretty awesomee day, had a good day at work too, saw a lot of muscles haha. And tomorrow will be yet another busy day, got a few errands to run such as post a parcel, go to my hairdressers, hv a look at shops, pick up archie comics from a house and at night I have another party to go to. I can't waiitt! Next week is my holidaaayyss so I'm hoping to have a drink up at my place. Cantt waiiit yayyy! Catch u guys laterr! Mwah!


Hey guys you have to listen to this song. This is my number one song of the moment. It is absolutely beautiful and I just wanna cry when I listen to it hehe hope you guys love it too *hugs*





I'm sad... sad... sad... sad... I feel sad... emotionally & physically. I hate uni life... uni life = no life...

I want to have some fun fun fun fun..........

Uni Life = Assignments = Stress = No strength = Not seeing friends = Boring = No effing life = Shit..........


Songs of the MO:

M.I.A - Paper Planes
Shonetelle- T-Shirt
September- Cry for you
Script- The man who can't be moved
Puddle of Mudd- We don't have to look back now
Lady Gaga- Just move
Katy Perry- Hot & Cold
Jordin Sparks- One step at a time
Switchfoot- Learning to breathe
Rihanna- Disturbia
Kings of Leon- Sex on fire


Sup all! Humm i havent really got a topic to blog about today. I didn't really do much ay, just the usual. Uni from 12pm-1pm, then home and slept then went to work at 3.30-8.30 and here i am! Was supposed to go clubbing tonight with some uni friends but as usual priorities stepped in! Argh! Anyway thought I'd share a song with you guys. It's called T-SHIRT BY SHONTELLE and I love the MEANING of the lyrics. Have a listen if you ever get the chance. Mwah!

Hey, ohh, let me tell you no.
Oh baby.
Trying to decide, trying to decide if I, really wanna go out tonight.
I never use to go out without you, I'm not sure I remember how to.
I'm gonna be late gonna be late but, all my girls gonna have to wait cause, I don't know if I like my outfit.
I tried everything in my closet.

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you, sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool, trying to dress up when I'm missing you.
Ima step out of this lingerie, curl up in a ball with something Hanes.
In that I lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
Oh, with nothing but your t-shirt on.

Hey, gotta be strong gotta be strong but I'm, really hurting now that you're gone.
I thought maybe I'd do some shopping, but I didn't get past the door and, now I don't know now I don't know if I'm, ever really gonna let you go and I, couldnt even leave my appartment.
I'm stripped down torn up about it.

Trying to decide, trying to decide if I, really wanna go out tonight.
I couldn't even leave my appartment, I'm stripped down torn up about it.

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you, sick of this dress and these Jimmy Choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool, trying to dress up when I'm missing you.
Ima step out of this lingerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
In that I lay.

Hey hey, nothing feels right when I'm not with you.
Sick of this dress and these jimmy choos.
Taking them off cause I feel a fool, trying to dress up when I'm mising you.
Ima step out of this lengerie, curl up in a ball with something hanes.
In that I lay, with nothing but your t-shirt on.
In nothing but your t-shirt on(2x)


HEY GORGEOUS READERS!!!

This has been a looong day! I've got a splitting headache at the mo =( But anyway this post goes out to all my wonderful fabulous friends from back home!!! Wherever you are make sure you're in Brunei at least JANUARY 22ND! I'm gonna be back back back and I wanna see all of yooouuuu!!!!

MISS YOU GUYS TO THE MAXXX!!!!! MWAHHH!!!!!


Here is a collection poems that mean a lot to me. Not only are they beautiful, but they express a lot about the way I feel at the moment as well. Hope you enjoy them as much as I do. Love, me.

The weightlessness of love

Dropped with a rock from the outstretched arms of Galileo in 1492,
we would not yet have hit the ground.
Encased to our ankles in fresh concrete poured by the disreputable associates of Al Capone,
we would swim effortlessly with fishes.
Punctured cruelly perhaps by a scatter of tacks
we could fill your tire with love.
Placed in a warm bath on a cool day we would float like bubbles
you could wash your hair with us.

Let me describe for you his lips

He kissed me first.

He will deny it
but he did.

I was there at the time

at least
in the beginning.

I was fresh kahawai
straight out of
the salt

shaken once or twice

then split
head to tail
into fine pieces
of white flesh

and placed

on his tongue
to melt like ice.

I was a frail child
wrapped securely
in blankets.

I was wine
swallowed straight
from the bottle

...............
...............

I do not know
what happened
after that...

Its belly full of bread

Love poked me
in the eye at first

hurt me in the
chest next

where it went
after that brought
no pain at all

although I ached.

Then I made
my belly
rise and fall

I was not hungry
any more.

The place inside me where he was

It is possible to say

now:

he was my holy day

that day my city was built

that morningI robbed the
natives blind and

threw a generation of
my finest to death
for a ridiculous war.

He was that day
I walked with Jesus
through the streets
and knocked him

blow by blow

into the wood.

In time to come

when people walk over me,
tending sheep,

they might kick
with luck
an empty bottle or two,

a shard of pottery

and laugh at what we thought
would hold water forever.

Be sure of one thing,

I loved him.

When all else falls
let this be the one small
vessel a goatherd
lifts out of the sand.

He was my time.

There was no
before
before him,

and afterwards
can now
only ever be

afterwards.

I used to think
I would not die.

Now I know otherwise.


These poems are dedicated to...





Omg hiiiiiiiiiii everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have not been here in YEARS!!!!!!!!! Well maybe more like a year!!!! And i do miss it!!!I've been soooooooooo bussyyyyyY!!!!!!!!!! So much has happend latelyyyy!!!!!! Anywayyy its reli latee now and i'm just catching up w friendss!!! I finally finished yet another assignment today and have 2 more before hols next week yay!!! Jeeez i had d most stressful dday.. well not really because i missed two lectures (yikes!) but i did have a stressful day because my assignment, which is also d hardest assignment and essay iv eva done in my LIFE was due in today at 4pm. So anyway because it was so hard i had no idea but to bullshyt it right? And i did that. It took me 3 days to write 800+ words when it usually takes me a few hours to write 1000 words. Can u imagine how hard it was??? So anyway, at 3pm I finally finished my darn essay and i was over d moooon! All i had to do was save it, put my references in, transfer it to my other computer, submit it to turnitin (sounds like a lot but it isnt really) and I would be done! And then at 3.05pm after saving it 3 times just to be sure i quit microsoft word only to find out that my bloody essay had NOT been saved!!! So at 3.06pm there I was panicking and almost crying because I had to hand it in in half an hour plus do all that other stuff. So that meant I had to rewrite the other half of my essay in 2o mins. But my mind was just soooo BLANK, nothing came to mind cuz I was freaking out. So i had to calm myself down and i finally got it done. It was a bit late but I got there at 4PM and I HAVE NEVA BEEN SO HAPPY TO HAND IN AN ASSIGNMENT EVA!!!!! yay yay yay yayy yayyyyy!!!!!!

Anyway things have just been so stressful lately i swear im getting old wrinkles hahahaha na jus kiddinig but i feel like i am damit! I need to DE-stress! I cnt wait to go back to brunei for holidayyy!!! I need it!!! I need a lot of things in my life right now!!!

GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!!

LOVE u allllll!!! xoxoxo

P.S: I'm too lazy to change all my details on the right so the only active parts of this blog are the posts and the chatter box thingo. But who knows one day i may be bored (that will prob neva happen) and change it. mwah mwah mwah!